I enjoyed your article Julia. Much of my work is to help people in the messy middle. The myth is that there is actually some kind of "permanent" destination to get to. Life is cyclical and iterative. We visit our personalities over and over as they grow into something else. We evolve. We become aware. (Not everyone does by the way). When we do we start looking for things we could not have imagined years before. Listening to your intuition is a path to self knowledge. Self knowledge is needed to find meaning and purpose. Kudos on taking the time to sit in the discomfort. This too shall pass as they say. In the meantime be grateful for the life you have, your friendships and the beauty that exists around you. PS Love Ibarra's book!